27.RIP Mum

27. RIP MUM

Video tribute

I really have no words. Life just doesn't seem the same now, and the emptiness..........

I wrote the poem below, and [somehow] managed to read it at Mums funeral. I really wanted to as it is my final words to my Mum.
I can't explain how I feel right now... but these words sum most of my thoughts up...... 
It is called 'I'm OK'.

My Mum never forgot a birthday card

even when her life was really hard

she coped with illness in a dignified way

with a simple response of "I'm OK"

The best teacher this earth has ever known

worrying about us all, even though we're fully grown

always making sure we had plenty to eat

and often something special, or a nice little treat

Even when life was cruel, and dealt you another blow

never once did you complain, or even let it show

We asked how you were, every single day

the answer was always the same "I'm OK"

Mum was the glue within the family

always a nice meal and a pot of tea

Thinking of others and never herself

quietly dealing with pain and failing health

A brilliant Mum to Alan, Gillian, Kevin, me and Trevor

It's now quite obvious to us that angels can't live forever

With tearful eyes we watched you slowly fade away

Although we loved you dearly, we could not make you stay

The kindest and most thoughtful soul, its such a great loss

Now you're dancing in the magic dust, out in the cosmos

The hardest thing I've ever had to do

is say 'Goodbye' now your life is through

So I'll see you in the moon, and on the rainbow too

now every text I get, I'm hoping it's from you

Not only my Mum, but my dearest friend

and it breaks my heart to see it end.

Nothing will make me stop missing you

but the lessons you taught will see me through

When the sunshine warms my face, I shall think of you

or when it snows, or I see a glorious cosmic view

we will all carry you close by our side

you will journey with us all, far and wide

Now we have to move forward, remembering the lessons she taught

and hold on to her memory, and the things she bought.

She was so selfless, she would hate all this fuss

Mum is all around, and inside each of us

You're my guardian angel now Mum, sitting on my shoulder

Whispering your words of wisdom, to use as I get older.

Sometimes I felt we were worlds apart

So much unsaid, now you live in my heart

Part of me died when you went away

I miss you Mum, every single day

You loved all kinds of people, we knew from the very start

with babies and small children being closest to your heart.

Life goes on here, but it will never be the same

we try and help others, and we do it in your name

For if we try really hard, for the rest of our days on earth

Maybe we can come close, to what your life was worth

The most inspirational woman there will ever be

You were MY Mum, and I'm as proud as could be

A fighter, a giver, a great sense of fun,

The greatest gift I ever received is that you were my Mum.

On to other news. My art is really doing well, I am very pleased to say that after all this time, I am actually selling it- loads of it!
Thankyou to anyone who has bought a piece...you are amazing!!!

During the first week of this month, I am going to have a sort out, and add LOADS of art to my eBay. During the last week of this month, there will be some absolute bargains to be had...so keep an eye on my eBay..............   eBay, Ishiart

Many thanks to all who have stuck by me. I love you all -x-

Ishi-art sale here....

So, what will March bring? I am hoping that it will bring me some kind of peace, some sleep and some smiles. I am hoping the bad memories will fade and be replaced by the happier ones. I am hoping for sunshine...and I am hoping to get travelling again asap!
As you can imagine, there is still a lot of sorting out to do, and we have to now clear Mums little bungalow.
I miss my Mums texts, her sparkly eyes, her humour and kindness. I miss her being around, miss her smile, miss chatting to her...I just miss seeing her.
I love you so much Mum -x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x